Nov 22, 2010

My thoughts, in words this time.

I don't know why I always have a fear of writing real journal entries in here. I guess maybe because I've exposed this blog more than any other type of journal I've had, and also maybe because I feel like it's a lot easier to hide behind unexplained artwork rather than behind words. In fact, I don't even know why I try so hard to hide who I am. I think I worry too much about the negative things and try to avoid letting those out, but I know there are a lot of good things about me and I don't think I should keep stopping myself from speaking out.

I started a separate blog a few months ago; I start new blogs and journals quite a few times a year, it's almost become a routine. Anyways, I started that blog because I felt like I can't write in this one. I tried so hard to make this blog give off a positive impression, and I succeeded didn't I? The truth is, I don't feel like this reflects who I really am. I've been reading all these amazing blogs and I admire all these people who can be so open about so many things in their world.

I don't want this blog to be just about my silly, silent art.

I'm going to write some entries in here about my little world. It's been pretty busy lately. I don't know how it's going to go, and I hope it doesn't make anybody like me less, and I hope it doesn't end up being a distraction from my art. Maybe I'll delete those entries in the end, but really I just need someone to hear me out lately.

Dorota Pankowska.


Brittney said...

I think I know exactly how you're feeling. I feel like I have absolutely no one who would take the time to sit and listen to me talk about what's on my mind. Or sometimes I feel like I'm just dumping my problems onto other people and keep quiet instead... If you need anyone to talk to maybe we can both do each other a favor. :/

- brittney

allie said...

i'm really looking forward to more posts like these.

the interesting specimen said...


Bonnie Heather said...

Aww, I swear I commented on this an hour ago!

I just wanted to say, I know exactly what you mean. Every time I make a post on my blog that doesn't basically consist of pictures I start to feel so self conscious...

But I've always wished you would make more posts like this! I hope to see more. :)

styleforlife said...

I am here. I think you write beautifully!
Keep doing it.

Kate said...

I think it's important to show who you really are in your blog: your thoughts and feelings. Not least because it's helpful to write things down when all isn't going 100% smoothly (and when does it ever?) and because, I feel, a blog should be a reflection of the true person, deep inside.

Kate x

wallflower said...

Thanks for the positive comments. I guess you'll have to wait and see how strange these entries might be. :$

wichser studio said...

I completely understand you! I am a blogger starter every month-er too! And for the same reasons as you. I always feel I can't fully expose myself on my blog sometimes. Or when I put the link onto another site, say Facebook or on business cards..I slowly start to delete some entries that I think I wrote too much about my life or too 'overbearing' or too sad or something..for the fear of more people coming onto my site and thinking something less of me.

But with my new blog now, I'm trying to be more easy and open. My husband reminds me that this IS ME. The blog is about MY life..well our life. So it should be open and free. It can't ever be right or wrong. It just is. That piece of advice helped me to be more laid back and more natural when posting.

So let's do this together! I'm so happy you wrote this post :)

Melanie's Randomness said...

I love your artwork & I look forward to knowing more about you! I feel the same way with my blog, I keep it vague so people don't know my specifics but lately I've been opening up more & the response is great. I wish you all the luck with this! =)

Melanie's Randomness

Phoenix Peacock said...

even the most positive person can feel like they are drowning at times.
and honesty is so much more appealing than wearing a mask.
YOUR blog means you get to do whatever you want...

Anonymous said...

don't underestimate how much your art says about who you are! But on the other hand, I love to learn more about you. xo

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